Well, it’s been a very interesting year. If you defined my life this year by a hand of cards, I guess I played a lot of it with a 2/7! I think I’m ready to play with Aces now. I’ve had some things happen to me, that I certainly didn’t expect, and at times for sure I didn’t want. Have you ever been really fooled by somebody? Are takers attracted to you? These are things that I think about. I always have to tell myself that some people aren’t as far along on their journey as I am. I suppose people have been worried about me. Some haven’t known what to say, some have said I’m sorry, most have been a bit surprised about my introspection of life. I want all of my readers to know that I will be ok, but I am more than likely forever changed. Will I be forever changed in a good or bad way? You wouldn’t think a text message could do that? What do you do with that text message? Do you let it define you, or do you start defining a new path? New paths take time. People want you to be a lot of things that you don’t always want to be. Do I want to be the guy that is rock and roll all the time? Do I want to live the bachelor life forever? Would I be good at it? Certainly, I am sure I would, but life is about a little more than that to me. I’ve formulated a plan, and I mean a big plan. I have started to make some changes, and I’ve looked at my life in a whole different way. This needed to happen. For my life to be music, music, and more music is no way to go. For it to not be about music at all is no way to go either. My knowledge of the world continues to grow. I got to see how the other half lives. Life with kids, activities, sporting events, band practices and concerts, birthday parties at skateworld, the energy of young kids wanting to play every night, what single mothers go through just to keep their head above water, yeah that’s a lot of what is happening in America. It’s a wonder that more people don’t go insane. I learned I really liked kids. They’re so honest, yet they are so sweet. It’s a void when you grow to like certain kids, and they’re not around anymore. You always hope that the kids know that you thought the world of them, and that it wasn’t their fault at all. You can’t really say anything, but you hope so nonetheless. I learned sometimes that I’m a big kid, and that’s a good thing. My life has been very focused and selfish at times on my music career. I was told about it in my twenties. I didn’t exactly believe that at the time, but looking back on things, there was some validity. Music used to be such a huge part of my life. I’d go with about 35 percent now. I love playing, singing, and listening to music, but it will not be my definition. It’s a part of me, but I have a regular M-F job now, and I have a lot of other aspects of me to share with people. I don’t always know why people don’t appreciate those other aspects of me? I have been to a million concerts people. I will probably go to some more, but it isn’t all I want to do or be. I have some new challenges, and hobbies that I am going to take on this summer, I have a big plan and goal that will culminate on June 3rd, 2012. Look out people, contrary to Lynyrd Skynyrd this bird will change, has been changing, and always will change. I’m doing this for me, for my future, and for what needs to be.
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